A couple of months ago, I bought an orchid at a Farmer’s Market right near my apartment. I’ve always loved flowers of all kinds, but there’s something special about orchids. They have an odd shape about them and they seem exotic in the world of flowers. I paid eight dollars in cash for the plant I would name Agatha and I set out to try to keep her alive. Having no domestic prowess whatsoever, it’s been quite the road that the two of us have been on.
The Sunday I bought my orchid was a beautiful time in my life. I remember that day so clearly. I was getting ready for a date and I had my favorite sandals on. I remember looking down at them as I placed the plant by my feet so I could unlock my apartment door. Once inside, I sat her in the middle of my counter and was amazed at the different colors tracing a pattern on her petals. She was the centerpiece of my kitchen. I was so so happy. That’s the only way I can describe that moment in time. I eventually moved her to my windowsill to make sure that she got plenty of sunlight. She was blooming and I was so proud of her.
Some weeks passed and something that had once been in my life came to an abrupt end. I was in a dark place. Much like my beautiful orchid, I needed sunlight to bloom and get better. I’ve been frustrated with myself because the healing process hasn’t been as easy as I’d like. Sometimes a glimmer of past pain still manages to creep into my day and I get so angry at myself for the feelings I have. I was upset with myself for not bouncing back like I usually do. During this time, Agatha wasn’t doing so well herself. I had moved her to my office and within a week, all of her blooms were falling off. She had a cut in her stem that was no longer allowing water to reach all of her flowers. She was a representation of what I had been feeling on the inside for months. And do you know what I did? I threw her in the trash. The whole plant. I gave up on her.
Luckily, my dear friend Jess reminded me that flowers are able to be cut back and can then regrow…granted, it may take some time. I reached into the trash can and pulled Agatha out and sat her on my desk. I took my scissors and cut her stem past the irreparable spot. I gave her some fresh water. I gave her another chance. It will take a while for her to bloom again, but I bet when she does, she’ll be even more beautiful than before.
“Look at the wildflowers and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?” Luke 12:27-28
Best Wishes,
O